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[Oct. 2nd, 2007|12:48 am] |
whisky, tobacco make me slp well every night.
and i was drinking w mum jst now.
HOHOHO!
and everyone discourage me to get ds!
WHYWHYWHY?!
and my last post before i close this LJ. (:
you might never see this,
but im really sorry im making you feel this way.
i dont actually need an answer.
and i hate what's happening now.
cause i really miss you so,
and i'll nt let you go.
i just lost my mind.
` i cant find the words i can say. |
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[Oct. 1st, 2007|02:30 am] |
zel asked mf is zel is being a bitch towards this someone.
mf says she is not a god,
and zel sings god is a girl.
so now mf say zel think its funny?
zel say no leh.
zel is troubled.
mf mumbles and giggle.
mf is scold zel for typing giggle and scold zel retarded.
zel is use a sharpener to sharpen her.
seriously i think i've really been a bitch like since sch started.
and i shldnt be blaming sch or anyone else, but myself.
im jst like any childish kid next door who cant control my own emotions,
and yea, im sorry.
but i still feel that one shld be responsible for their own actions.
suddenly feel quite rich now,
so haha, can go back to the cigg on one hand, beer on another!
and thank god for whisky at home,
so loner zel can get drunk(at least i get drunk at home).
and then zel asked mf,
what do you do if your life is in a mess.
she said jst cry and wish i was dead.
but i'd say get wasted everynight till thing gets better.
you guys know where to go if you want drinks!
come look for me(:
& i'll never forget what you said. |
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[Sep. 30th, 2007|01:06 pm] |
i gaved up without finishing the race,
cause i know i can never rch the ending point.
hope you're fine with one lesser burden off your shoulder.
zel have to get a life,
starting off with buying some ciggs and stealing some drinks later.
(((((((((((((((((((") im so gonna remember this. (:
loving someone was never wrong,
but all i know is not to regret aft you made your decision.
i dont fit to be in love,
so dont tell me you love me.
i think the bad breath girl gave me a bad bruise,
i mean a really bad bruise( not including those i have on my knees). )):
that's how bad it can be when human goes desperate for a soccer ball.
booooo. i is want to score ball again! :D
i want to get that doll for you,
wait till i see it again.
its a subjective thing baby.
`do you know.
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[Sep. 30th, 2007|01:02 am] |
cant believe im sitting here crying,
crying like how i used to.
i dont want to fall in love again,
i dont want to.
`so terrible, so so terrible. |
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[Sep. 29th, 2007|02:18 pm] |
i love you baby. (:
i wanna have time for my bike licience,
so i cld send you to your so-far-away sch.
wonder how you hae so much energy everyday,
my bunny.
` there's not much justice in the world. |
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[Sep. 29th, 2007|02:36 am] |
i love sch, i so love sch please(:
and i pretty much like working at the pub(though boss gets really anal sometimes).
i super love the crowd.
and talking abt sch,
am going vietnam at the end of yr. ((:
at least we wldnt get cheated.
studying w ppl from different walks of life is so fun!
we also have funny food from different classmate and today we ate this rubbery thing.
which is suppose to be a all-time-favourite snack in vietnam.
and my michelle christina call them rubber viet and ann.
btw, viet and ann is my classmates from vietnam.
THEY ARE NICE PPL!!
work is fun because we always get to eat good food! SLURPS!
that's why im soooo fat now. tsk.
my energized bunny is clubbing agn today,
dont i love party bunnies :D
and i'm gonna pull you out for a movie w me no matter what next wk. GEEEEE.
zel is evil kid, oh baby, dont you love me (:
omg, i secretly think my hot bombay fren is NOT-VERY-STRAIGHT.
ok, i admit that i was peeping at her when she lie beside me.
and she's very pretty, but that's not the point.
i swear i can feel her hand near mine, then she turned and smile at me.
OMFG. please please please. NOOOOOOOOOOOO~
and emilia, you stupid straight thing,
dont ask me to like you can. irritating. LOLS!
going for sch party on wed.
wheeeeee, CANT WAIT TO SEE MY PALS.
and did i mention it's holiday for meeeeeeeeee :D
dont cantact me ppl, i want to be alone! WOOOOOOO!!
i love you too baby.
`the other woman.
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[Sep. 27th, 2007|10:42 pm] |
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all i could do is to think of you baby,
you seem to be everything i need. (:
sch's been busy for you and i,
and one day, one fine day,
things will be on our side.
we have to dream,
so we wldnt be apart for long.
come and get me and we'll be tgt the whole night long.
tgt we can build the nicest hse(but i insist on 2700mm ceiling).
we can buy 2 piece chic meal w extra fries,
or we can jst settle down with tanned chic rice(:
we can tk up all the space in our memory card,
with jst you and me.
we'll play all your favourite song,
we'll do all your favourite things,
we'll eat all your favourite food,
we'll club drinking the usual,
we'll dance like energized bunny.
i'll not complain, i'll not say no,
i like you, i'll like everything you does.
and if there's any justice in the world,
you'll be my girl.
and i'll make your heart go wohuhu. ((:
`you took my heart. |
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[Sep. 26th, 2007|02:35 am] |
i heard so much today,
things im suppose to and things im not suppose to.
the couples get tgt and we lonely souls went na's place to drink and eat.
spending the night w them and talked abt so many things.
and how evil some ppl are, so disappointed, really.
making use of others and saying the reverse?
fucking bitch, like really. HOW SHALLOW CAN YOU GIRLS GET?
well, i dont get why they're doing this, but me and negus are strong believers of karma. :j
swt couple we have there.
one cooking, one slping. LIKE SO AWWWWWW! (:
and all we know, nthing will brk them apart.
maybe as we grow older we'll tend to appreciate things ard us.
we did try to lit up some lantern and candles and we played with sparkles.
its like smthing i really wanna do for so long.
jst by sitting one side looking at them is good enough, can really feel the bonds and love amg them.
graudally, i blend in and we really had fun.
talking from subject ranging from bikes to studies.
im so not repeating THE SECOND TIME. (secretly giggling*)
was at her blog like what i usu do when i first come online everyday.
was a pretty short post, but was it mentioning abt me?
sometimes i hope that she blogs abt me be it a +ve or -ve post.
you'll look better without me.
i shld trust no one, except myself.
cause humans jst act too well, lie too well.
and i seriously ponder why is the world getting so ugly now.
sigh, even the best fall down sometimes.
you hit me really hard,
baby you punch me right in the heart.
and wldnt you hold me and complete me.
i will never know cause you'll never show,
so come and love me now.
or am i always the one ending up in bizzare love triangle.
ZEL, DO YOU HAVE TO BE IN LOVE?
yes, cause i very much love her still.
`cause tears dry on their own. |
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[Sep. 24th, 2007|07:17 pm] |
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woooooo, finally uploaded((: |
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[Sep. 24th, 2007|03:31 am] |
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cabbing home was soooo scary,
the driver is like doing some initial D thingy.
and i swear he's a old tiko.
i bought 10 acrylic paint and 5 gouche cause i thought i was rich.
then i realised i still have to endure for a wk before a new mth.
omg, fucking stupid i swear.
jst done w my lino,
and the damn carving tool fucking cut my finger.
christ!
it bleed like machiam free kind.
500 word essay by tmr.
CRAZY, and i'm still a mac retard.
and baby's gonna teach me!! MUAHAHAHAHAH.
i'll love you more more more! :D
lets do all the stupid things together,
lets love, laugh, cry, eat, run, walk, jump, drink, sleep, and cook disgusting food.
make love, not war.
set my mind to love you forever more.
# MEA IS LOVE. <3
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tell me why does it feel so weird,
why i reacted this way.
i thought i was different,
but im jst one of them.
i'll turn back to where i start,
forget abt the fantasy.
& i'll nv trust you ever again. |
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